Jayne's story continued...
12th September 2008
10 weeks since I started my sessions at Elite. I have been aiming to lose one pound a week (take a year for most of it to go) and so far I have lost 1 stone 5lb. I had a phone call from a woman's magazine writer and she wanted to know my weight, my dress size, a photo etc. Made me realise how obsessed we are about the numbers. Didn't agree to be in the magazine - really don't want to be part of this look at the fat woman get thin' society we have. I only write this so those of you who do want to stop being obsessed with food can find out there is a way - and it doesn't involve drastic surgery. Sure, I am telling you my weight loss - but only as aq hook to tell you more about how different this experience is.
The really exciting thing for me is that it appears that the 'eat as much as possible every day' button has been switched off. Ten weeks later and I still do not binge eat, overeat every meal, eat lots of snacks and wake up at night to eat. It has all stopped. My mind no longer focuses on food. I eat when I am hungry, stop when I am full (even leave food on the plate) and eat what I like.
The big test for me came a few weeks ago when I was ill with a summer cold. The saying goes feed a cold, starve a fever - I have eaten through whatever illness I have. A cold is a really good excuse to eat - I feel miserable, my throat is sore and I sit and watch TV. This gives me the perfect excuse to eat tomato soup (my mum always gave this to me when I was ill), and then over indulge. Cake, chocolate but especially an expensive brand if ice cream!
So I was sick, my husband had gone to work and………..I had the soup, melon. No 'need to eat ice cream for my sore throat' - nothing. I didn't force myself not to eat, I didn't say 'I can't have ice cream' (it is in the freezer), I just didn't think about it.
The freedom this has brought to my life is incalculable. I no longer feel a slave to my never ending need to think about food. The weight is shifting without me feeling deprived, or 'trying to be good' or hungry.
My hypnotherapy sessions have worked and this is the easiest weight loss programme I have ever been on. I don't want to lose the weight quickly and although I know I have lost more than my one pound a week, I am not over trying.
I have bought a Wii fit and am enjoying doing the yoga, muscle and aerobic exercises but I am not overdoing it. I am not obsessed about losing the weight. I have not done any exercise for few weeks, I have not got over my cold yet, but that too is not cause for concern. I don't feel 'bad' even if I eat ice cream, a biscuit, cheese, drink wine - I just eat what I want and stop when I am satisfied. I think this is what slim people have always done - I just never had the ability to do it, and now I can.
This sounds too good to be true and that is exactly how it feels.